I want to go somewhere where the sun is always shining. Maybe I could be influenced by some happy people that, in return, would make me happy. I’ve been thinking a lot about my feelings today. I got into an argument with my ‘friend’ last night and it got me thinking. She told me that I couldn’t use being depressed as an excuse for everything and that I need to learn how to be mature. I don’t understand what caused her to say the things that were said, but, regardless, it got me thinking. I’m actually still upset over it. I’m starting to become pretty bitter from all of these type of happenings, on the inside, that is. I know what it feels like to feel alone, sad, and confused so I try to greet others with the same cheerful smile that I would want someone to give to me. I guess that’s called living by the golden rule, but it doesn’t really apply to me because I’m not exactly treated the way I treat others. Sometimes it really hurts. I’m starting not to care too much about anything anymore. Within the next two years, I’ll be out on my own anyways. I’ll be able to choose who I want to surround myself with and, let’s be honest here, I can’t wait. I want to expirence all types of personalities. I just wish I was normal. But, then again, being normal is overrated.. I can’t win.